Why i don't write

A lot of people I meet from my past life [life before lithium] think of me as a writer. Why don't you write anymore they want to know. Well, let' see...

- I am scared of what will come out - some things are really not meant to be revisited
- I am scared that what will come out will be crap, of no value whatsoever - zero readability
- I don't want to hurt the people I love because I write mostly in memoir mode and I don't think they understand the licenses you can take within that genre
- Sometimes I just want to play with Ari ....I mean look at him, he's so cute.
- I am scared of being creative and actually producing something, completing something
- I don't have the self-discipline it takes to be a writer
- I don't have the literary tools to write what I want to write
- I am scared of actually writing something good because that would mean I have to write something else that's good and so on and so forth
- I know I am talented but just don't have the patience to cultivate that talent

 Every project I've started, I've aborted... so now I just want to get in the habit of doing this one thing on a regular basis - even if nobody will read it...even if its a massive waste of time ...its just me being shameless and getting it all out.