My friend Lauren gave me this idea of creating an alphabetical gratitude list. So I am grateful for:
A Ari - his tiny little paws and the sound they make pitter patter on the hardwood floor
Adam - snuggling, safety, warmth, tactical problem solving
Arpi - encouraging the artist in me, quiet strength, laughter
Art - splashing paint around? I'm in!
B Bua - the food she'd bring me to Westchester
Beaches - even though I haven't been on one in a while, ultimate relaxation
Blog - this blog and what its starting to represent
Bollywood - the true test of depression is when I'm not watching enough Bollywood movies
C Clothes - finally having the self esteem to buy beautiful clothes that actually fit me and feel good
Color - what would I do without the vibrant colors around me?
Cara - for never judging me
D Decor - my home still takes my breath away. I'd love to pursue interior design as an interest - find some blogs
E Evenings - when I feel my best, the fuel to my hypomania, wanting to get things done
Eyes - the gift of sight
F Food - comfort, dysfunction, love but still grateful for it all
Forever 21's plus size collection
Friends - what would I do without them
Fufaji - he's just adorable
G God, higher power, power greater than me
guidance
gratitude lists! the forum
H Home - having somewhere to relax, rejuvenate, sleep, cry, love, lounge
HR - the possibility of a career path, people always responding to me "oh you'd be great at that"
health insurance
I India - never thought I'd say that but yes part of me is grateful for India and being Indian
iphone and soon my new iPad
J Journaling - clears up my heart and head
K Kleenex - soft, soft
L Love - every form of it in my life
Leo - love our "Friend time"
Lu - maggie
M Mom - her soft everything, cheerleader
Marriage - the institution, anticipation, hope
Music
Mehul
Money
Medical team
N New York - always
O Outside - is so pretty right now, love this weather
P Parks ...recent trip to Riverside Park with Ari
Pa - his hugs
Q Qualifier - believe it or not I am grateful for him because my relationship with him pushed me to get the help I need
R Relationships
Recovery Partners
S Speakers in the bathroom, and everywhere else
Sponsor in program - for her constant support and guidance
Shreya - my ftp
Stuti - so glad we have iMessage
T Telephone meetings
U Understanding
V Vulnerability
W Water
X Sex in a loving, safe relationship
Y Yes - being able to say that more often, less social anorexia
Z Zeal